I genuinely hate that you’re making my life like this
not only are you constantly stressing me out, yelling at me, or otherwise telling me everyday I’m not good enough but now you dare compare me to her? AGAIN? You probably haven’t even stopped to consider how this would scar me.
You even dared asked me so provactively if I had my own mind? Uh Yes I do you fucking dumb shithole. Just ‘cause I think those boots aren’t the greatest looking around doesn’t mean I suddenly have no mind of my own
You say you weren’t trying to fucking force me to take things I don’t like but you Fucking were and don’t you deny it. You deem the things I say as things that do not make sense just because I don’t like the same things you do.
Seriously. Wtf ? I didn’t even say much. I would have exploded, but it wasn’t worth my time and energy. Forget you.
Hear the chimes, did you know that the wind when it blows It is older than Rome and all of this sorrow See the new Pyramids down in old Manhattan From the roof of a friend’s I watched an empire ending
Ate din din with the fam, and found out my mother puts ..a lot of wine in our sauce, soup etc basically in the food.. yeah that explains things.
Gave gifts today though my mother wasn’t specifically enthusiastic when I gave one to her. If I recall clearly when I asked if she liked it she just responded with a “Yeah, yeah now stop bugging me.” Gee. Someones in the spirit.
Ended up going out to see Christmas lights in Brea and my gawd do the people there go all out. Santas climbing ladders, Statue of Libertys, singing prophets, singing parakeets, reindeers flying in etc. was like one big electric bill shining colorfully.
A cool bar located on a river. Aiola Island, located right in the center of the Mur River in Graz, Austria, was built in 2003, and immediately developed itself as a popular attraction. (source)
that because I know no other way to treat other people then when I grow older I’ll be just as bitter and disgusting as you. I’m afraid I don’t know how to step out of influence.
I hate myself. I already subconciously treat people the way you treat me. It’s understandable to treat you in the same poor manner you treat me, but it becomes a horrid thing when its done onto others who originally are kind.
How do I find myself? You’re so forceful of the way you are I don’t know how to ignore it.
But I’ll try hard to step out. I have a choice. I know it. I just need to know what that choice is. And if it’s the right one. I can do this. I must.
to be nice when you’re really not. I can see right through you.
I know I’m not the nicest person around (no thanks to you) but at least I don’t try to hide it and put on this fake nice persona around. I know you’re quite horrible underneath so don’t even hide it.
I don’t understand really how anyone especially you can be so proud and arrogant when you know all the horrible things you think and do.
And the worst part is your too much of a COWARD to admit it.
Not even brave enough to say you’re sorry. You disgust me.
I’m sorry YOU don’t trust me and feel the need to worry constantly.
I’m sorry I’m not tall enough, too tiny, too weak, is near sighted so it burdens you by making you have to pay for my glasses, that I eat too much sometimes, sleep too much, am too stupid and useless.
Fine then. It’s all my fault. I hate you. I don’t know what to do myself when all I can do is hate which blocks me from being able to figure out what to do.
